Life has been a series of crazy events the past few months and it's been a little hard to keep up! To recap:
Andy left his job, started a new job, we left our church, joined a new church, jumped into the world of church planting, sold our house, moved in with my in-laws for 2 months, bought a new (super old!) house, renovated said house and finally moved in this past weekend! Goodness!
In the midst of all of this we also got "the call!" We had a birth mother interested in us! After getting some info that afternoon, we spoke with H (as I will call her here) that evening. The amount of peace that swelled up within Andy and I was amazing. She is such a sweet girl and when I talk with her I feel like I'm talking to my little sister. We text often and are looking forward to meeting face to face....NEXT WEEK!
That's right! Next Sunday we will travel to her hometown, 8 hours away, and spend the evening with her. Monday we will go to her ultrasound with her! Yes! We get to see our baby girl and hear her heart beat in person! I can't wait!
The devil has this was of ruining some of these joy filled moments though, doesn't he? He tries to steal our joy by allowing fear, insecurity, pain, worry, anxiety, etc creep in and overwhelm our hearts and minds. It's a battle sometimes, to fight those negative thoughts and keep them at bay. Despite having had a disrupted adoption a year ago, I am daily, sometimes hourly, choosing joy and HOPE. I had a friend remind me at the beginning of this journey that we have a God of hope. We have a responsibility to choose to hope in the sovereignty of The Lord! And HE has been incredible in providing peace, joy and HOPE theses past few weeks. There are many weeks to go until baby girl makes her appearance in March and I know there will be moments of fear, days of worry, times where anxiety and doubt creep in. But I also know that my God is bigger. His plan is perfect and He will see us through this, no matter how things end up.
So throughout this journey, I will choose hope.
